Saturday, December 31, 2011

Galatians 1:11

Dear brothers and sisters, I want you to understand that the gospel message I preach is not based on mere human reasoning. I received my message from no human source, and no one taught me. Instead, I received it by direct revelation from Jesus Christ. (NLT)

We used to amuse ourselves by cynically dissecting spiritual beliefs and practices when we might have observed that many spiritually-minded persons of all races, colors, and creeds were demonstrating a degree of stability, happiness and usefulness which we should have sought ourselves. (Alcoholics Anonymous, page 49)

Human reasoning.
If I can't convince myself
right now my own logic
trumps all others,
I look to wisdom
of the elders,
the sages,
the erudite of ages.
Tea leaves, ouija boards,
crystal balls,
divine revelation
feel gullible,
juvenile, naive.
Before tossing bath water,
I should check for babies.

Higher source,
teach me to trust your
higher wisdom.

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Galatians 1:10

Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ. (NIV)

That the man who is making the approach has had the same difficulty, that he obviously knows what he is talking about, that his whole deportment shouts at the new prospect that he is a man with a real answer, that he has no attitude of Holier Than Thou, nothing whatever except the sincere desire to be helpful; that there are no fees to pay, no axes to grind, no people to please, no lectures to be endured – these are the conditions we have found most effective. (Alcoholics Anonymous, pp 18-19)

No people to please – how liberating!
I've tried all my life to please people,
to follow the rules,
to go with the flow,
to not make waves,
to blend in.
I've tried all my life to disappear,
to not be seen
at least not in a bad light,
a way that would reflect badly
on my parents,
my school,
my town,
my profession,
the church
I've now no people to please!
What you think of me
is none of my business!
What God thinks of me —
that's my business.
But when I'm showing up,
asking him to tell me what to do
and doing it,
I'm free!

Free at last, free at last,
thanks, God, I'm free at last.

Sunday, December 11, 2011

Galatians 1:9

As we have said before, so I say again now, if any man is preaching to you a gospel contrary to what you received, he is to be accursed! (NASB)

I seemed to be able to snap back the next morning better than most of my fellow drinkers, who were cursed (or perhaps blessed) with a great deal of morning-after nausea. (Alcoholics Anonymous, "The Doctor's Nightmare")

God as I understand God
loves.  Period.
So, to be accursed?
Invoking supernatural power
to inflict harm, punishment?
God is god, in control,
has no need to call on himself
or his underlings to punish, harm.
Be afflicted with?
That one makes sense. I surely can
and do
curse myself, cause me misery,
agony, separation
from God, from all.
I need the right message,
the one from both Big Books
as my guide.
And when I stray and feel accursed,
it's a blessing, beckoning.

God, let me not curse myself
but always seek your love,
your blessings.